Somebody threw the gauntlet out there and said I should write a blog about the final days of my 40s. I NEVER thought I would be here, and for those of you still blithely frolicking among the flowers of your 20s, 30s, and 40s --take heed. For it is coming.
Yes I can see that it's coming but I haven't really been ready to face it. The magnitude of everything it means to me is just too much I tell you -- too much! Like a 7 foot man with size 15 shoes, like the world's largest ball of twine, like a plate of chicken & waffles with mashed potatoes, gravy, syrup and butter on the side, like a 5-day visit from a long lost friend, like sitting through a 30-minute set of Jim Abel songs -- it is JUST TOO MUCH!
I've been struggling with this, I realize, for the entire past year. To tap into the wellspring of regret, despair, and disbelief and DENIAL that lies just under the surface - I don't know if it's going to help anything. I don't know if you, dear reader, can take it! But the fact is, 2010 has arrived and now I have to face it........in 28 days and counting down..................
falling on the floor laughing! can't wait to read the next installment. and....i'm not laughing at you, but WITH you.
ReplyDeleteI look at you and I see me in four years. Such has been my destiny since e'er I opened my eyes as an infant babe and saw you hovering about my crib. So your angst is a bell tolling for me also. But my sympathy is tinged with bitterness, my sister, as one of my daughters has told me that I look older than you, and you look to be merely 35. Ay, the years have been hard, and not all of us can sail into middle-age so gracefully. I am seeking that secret formula from Canada and will be engaging Yami or such persons to smuggle it over the border, and when they do, the fountain of youth will be MINE! Perhaps I will share it with you, dear sister, but only if you promise to look OLDER THAN ME! Which you are not doing in that photo you have on this blog. I should look so nubile and dewy-eyed!
ReplyDeleteOMG you are KILLING ME! It was worth it to post this blog just to read your reply!
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